financial ruin

woke up today and checked my bank account.

only to find out that i have nothing.

i feel my mind slipping into a void of worry and despair.

what am i to do with a dollar to my name.

how can i find the motivation to get a job.

i have been delt a shit hand from the get go.

i have to play a waiting game.

i dont want to wait i dont want to suffer anymore

i have no food, no hope, and no one to ask for help.

people say it gets better after you hit rock bottom.

but i feel that i just cant stop digging.

im broke and i have nothing to call my own.

all i have is a computer and a car(that is fucked up)

but how long before i have to sell them?

waste of my time

so talked to shelly today, found out that she is no longer going to sex anyone up because she is tired of being led on and leading on people....and who was the main on led on...me

not only that she told me that she didnt really like me in the first place so i told her well you want to hang out today right, she said yes, i told her to go fuck her self .....way to waste my time.